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Get Out 2018, and Get in 2019

Well, long time no see, my blog.
It's hard to believe my last writing was in April.
Did I do something special or meaningful?
No.
So, overall speaking, my 2018 was a failure.
I didn't achieve anything proud.
Maybe...
One only thing I am proud of is my little boy, who is so lovely and brings so much love and laughter in my life.
He has being  growing, but thing that only grows is my weight. :(

Still, as usual, I'm going to make some positive new year resolutions for myself.
At least, this time I wrote them down so that I can review and reflect them in the end of 2019.

1. I hope to finish my thesis paper this year.
**This is my last year. I wasted two years, almost 30 thousand NT dollars on nothing. What a bloody idiot I am!!!

2. I hope to lose some weights down to 65kg (60kg the best).
**Eat wise and exercise more!!

3. Keep regular schedule everyday, such as sleeping on time (before 11p.m.)

4. Don't use cellphone more than 2 hours at night.
**Write paper or read books!!

6. Don't eat snacks at night (after dinner).
**If I sleep on time, I won' get hungry easily.

7. Drink more water!!
**At least two bottles a day.

8. Keep writing!
**Writing can clear my thoughts and keep my English at a certain level.

9. Practice my English speaking and writing.
**I lost them gradually.

10.  Spend my time with my family as much as possible!!!!
**Family first!

Finally, happy 2019!!!

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